"Suludere" After Yesterday

After Yesterday....
You know there is a song with this title too. After yesterday, today I feel tired, sometimes you can't escape from the memories... Of course, I try to remember all nice things but death, always hits sadly... Between past and today, your mind doesn't stop. I'm affected deeply I think. This is a little bit complicates story, but all I can say I miss my Dad and something after his death hits me once again; as if old pages are being opened again... I just talk to myself in my own way, into the words... Sorry for my mod, I didn't go out and I won't.
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All these songs that was the inspiration (for to write these poetical falls) of the soundtracks of "Kara no Kyoukai", (Boundary of Emptiness) is a Japanese novel series, authored by Kinoko Nasu and illustrated by Takashi Takeuchi. It is also known under the nickname Rakkyo. Its subtitle is The Garden of Sinners.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=314TVIcT5Jc
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A dark picture
falling into the emptiness
the waves beat sadly
in the land of my loneliness…
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Wiping my tears this silent morning
I find the sun in your smiling face
as if you didn’t go…
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We should have talked…
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3)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Lc4jg1LsoA
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Now, memories talk;
playing with the sun
Everything and nothing
in the depth of mind
is defeated heart beatings…
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You are there…
Me…?
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4)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NNaK26HTftg
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A hot summer day
The sun lands at the earth as if;
parching the ground and the people…
Among the shadowless trees
Me, in the age of a child, crazy
And you, a dreamer man…
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You talk about the future,
telling me this field where we stand
“One day, when I retire I will come here to live…”
Between the olive branches I play chase
and I can’t understand you
and you know this too!…
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For to realize that you were talking the “I” in the future
all these years… all these stories
passed.
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It is too late now,
just to say “I understand you”…
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5)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=udevE9HNP_A
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My small world
when you left is great now than before
because I carry your heart too;
it is the only land - that has no borders,
"Love".
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=314TVIcT5Jc
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The dance of the memories
touching to my heart
Everything comes and goes,
flowing in the time river,
everything…
even love too!
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But regardlessly the words of my silent heart
falling into the emptiness
and echoing here;
right here…
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7) “Suludere”*
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QfIulXK_qw8
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It is a place where will be hidden in my memories!
Maybe it had never been real;
it was a childish imaginary!
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Till the man on the phone pronounced it; “Suludere”!
It is not the betrayal of the earth;
Please forgive me Dad,
All my richness is my heart…
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*Suludere, watery creek
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27 February, 2010
nia sunset